Black Cloud- Let Go & Let God.

So, I've been a little off my blogging game.  Actually, I've been really off my blogging game.  I've been under a lot of stress for the past few days, and I've let it completely control my life.  So as a fair warning to you- this is a completely serious blog.  If you're not in the mood for seriousness and blah, blah, blah, then stop reading lol.

Over the past year, I have made more than my fair share of mistakes.  Unfortunately, I don't know whether or not I'm going to get the chance to correct them.  I made one mistake, and then a short time later, I made the same mistake.  But, third time's the charm, right?  I sure hope so.  And if it weren't for the incredible Tony Garza, I would've completely fallen apart this week.

Mostly, I'm worried about what my parents will say/think.  One of my biggest fears is disappointing them, which is why I've been so panicked and stressed.

I honestly think I have the HUGEST black cloud to ever exist looming over me at all hours of the day.  And every time I think the sun is going to shine, instead, it starts raining on my freaking head.  I just feel like the ultimate screw-up all the time.  And I know that I shouldn't think that way, but I just get so frustrated with myself for all the dumb, wrong things that I do.  I feel like I let down everyone around me, which is awful, because I want nothing more than to make the people I care about feel happy.

Ugh.  Despite all of my problems, I know that God is the one control, not me, not my lame issues, not school, not anything or anyone but God.

LET GO AND LET GOD.

That's my quote for today.  It's extremely important to me, especially during this rough patch.  And I hope not, but maybe someone reading this is having trouble, too- if that's the case, I hope that this helps you like it's helping me.

Best wishes,
Shelby Elizabeth.

Hammy Suicide.

Tony and I have a hamster.  His name is "Buccaneer"/"Buc"/"Bucolas"/"Buccy"/pretty much anything you can come up with along those lines...
Anyways, we got Buc last semester because we decided that we really needed an animal.  It was a pretty great decision if I do say so myself...  And I do say so myself.
Getting back to the point of the story- today, our hamster decided that he no longer loves his life, and that he was going to commit the ultimate crime:  Hammy Suicide.
Don't worry though, no hamsters were harmed in the making of this blog.  Just a really sad story that I felt I should share with you.

Onto more serious things...
Sorry I forgot to post yesterday.  I feel pretty bad about it.  Haha, who am I kidding?  I don't feel bad about anything right now.

I'M A SOPHOMORE IN COLLEGE! A-A-A-A-AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!(:

Life is swell.  I finished my last two exams today.  Yesterday's went a little better than today's, but, whatever- it's summer now!  I'm pretty ecstatic.  Tomorrow I'm gonna pack up all my junk at Callaway, since it's my very last day there.  Anybody wanna celebrate that thought with me?  Let's do it!  No more Callaway, no more Callaway, no more Callaway, no more Callaway, la la la la la la la la.(:  Ahh, good celebration.

See ya later.

Shelby

$85 and a Mom Van.

So, since Callaway is the most pleasant place on Earth, they're kicking us out less than 24 hours after finals finish.  Damn Callawayans.  So, I have to take 4 exams, pack up everything in my apartment, and then load it all into the mom van.  Yup, I'm rockin' the mom van this week.  Since my loving parents have decided that I can pack up my stuff, carry all 3 billion pounds of it up and down Callaway's lovely halls, and then truck it home...  By myself...  Rude, right?  Right.

On a lighter note, today, Katie was doing her laundry, and as she came back into the room, she mumbled the word "books."  So, I'm thinking to myself, "What the hell?  Is Katie on dope?" (which is a That 70's Show reference for all you obsessive weirdos like us).  But as it turns out, there was this stranger trolling the lovely halls of Callaway (as previously mentioned) who was scanning books and...  Giving.  People.  Money.  I didn't even have to leave my room!  Fabulous, eh?  Anyways, so as the troll is adding up all the money that I'm getting for my unwanted books, Katie decides that since she has more books than I do, she's going to get more money than me.  Poor Katie- she had no idea what she was getting herself into...

Final Score...  Katie: $8.  Shelby: $85.

And might I just say, winning feels good.  I finally understand what Charlie Sheen is always blabbing about.  Yeah, it feels good to sit on my couch and make $85.  Ahh, life.

Tony went back to Sugar Land this evening, so once again, I'm spending the night in the same general location as Katie.  (Guess you can't win 'em all...)  However, he went back for a solid reason- and he's bringing home my PoliSci book, which was recently located in the trunk of my car that is also in Sugar Land.  Yay for boyfriends!  Now I'll have a chance of passing my PoliSci final on Wednesday evening.  Great news.

Also, since my mother is leaving for England on Saturday, she's taking me to get my nails done on Friday morning.  Getting manicures is my guilty pleasure.  I love it.  Especially since my nails are so freaking tiny.  Having long nails (even if they're fake and only last a couple of weeks) makes me happy.(:  AND, on Sunday night, Tony's family is taking me out to dinner.  Once again, WINNING!

To end my little ranty blog for tonight, I'll let you know that Katie and I are about to watch Mean Girls.  I'm elated about this.  I've wanted to watch it for over 24 hours, and Katie has finally given in!  Also, my quote for the blog will come from the fabulous movie:

"'Taylor Zimmerman- two for you.  Glenn Coco?  FOUR for you, Glenn Coco!  You go, Glenn Coco!  And uh... Caddy Heron.  Do we have a Caddy Heron here?'  'It's Cady.'  'Oh, Cady.  Here you go, one for you...  And none for Gretchen Weiners- Bye!'"  -Damian and Cady.

Oh life, you are so good.(:

-Shelby.

Back to Business.

I apologize for the abruptness of my last post.  But, for those of you who are interested, I am now safely back at my apartment in College Station.  However, Tony and I were welcomed home by some fleas.  Lovely.  So, he's taking care of business over there, while I am itching myself nonstop at my own apartment as Katie does her INFO notes for Exam Week. 

Speaking of Exams Week- it makes me want to shoot someone.  (Figuratively speaking of course- I'm not actually a violent person... unless your name is Psycho Brooke.).  I have 4 major exams in the next couple of days.  Sounds miserable, right?  That's 'cause it is.  Bleh.  I am extremely anti-finals at this point in life.

I know, I know, you're thinking, "What else is new in your fabulous life, Shelby?"  In response to your thoughts, today was Mother's Day, as I pointed out in my blog from earlier today...  I got my mom a gnome.  It's the best gnome ever, though. 'Cause it's kinda like what my mom would look like if she were a gnome, which I think is pretty freaking fabulous.  Also, I was the ONLY ONE in my family who got her a present...  So now you're thinking, "Wow- Shelby is a great daughter," or, "Dang!  You must've gotten a lot of brownie points for that one!"  Well, both of your thoughts (which I, personally, agree with) do not follow in line with what actually happened.  There was no praise, and no brownie points were awarded.  Damn...

On a lighter note, I found a $15 iTunes gift card in my bedroom back home whilst I was cleaning it out this weekend.  I'm pretty sure it hasn't been used, either!  Happy Final's Week to me!  Now I just have to decide what I want to get with it :/.  

BIGGEST PET PEEVE:  When people eat/chew/smack with their mouths open.  I absolutely cannot stand it. It honestly makes me want to slap the person that's doing it...  Hard.  I just don't get why it's so hard for people to close their mouths.  And I get it when you're eating chips, and you just can't help the loud crunching sound, but if you're smacking for like, bread or something, STOP IT.

I guess now would be a good time to throw in my quote-of-the-blog...

"Use soft words and hard arguments."  -English Proverb.

And since technically I posted a blog already today without a quote, I feel as though I should add another to this one to make up for it.  So, here it is:

"If you fill your heart with the regrets of yesterday and the worries of tomorrow, you have no today to be thankful for."  -Unknown.

I felt like the last one was pretty appropriate for my situation this week with finals, moving out, my parents leaving, blah, blah, blahbitty-blah.  I guess it's just something for me to think about during my busy life haha.

Stay beautiful bloggers!
-Shelby.

Happy Mother's Day!

I was doing so well!  But it completely blew my mind last night that, hey- I should WRITE ON MY FREAKING BLOG.  Urg.

Anyways, I've been back home for Mother's Day weekend, except my family hasn't been here with me.  Instead, they went up to Austin for my sister's volleyball tournament.  Whatever, family.  So, I've been home completely alone.  Let me just tell you that my house is the SCARIEST PLACE ON EARTH.  As a result of this freaky, haunted place, I ended up spending the night at Tony's house.  His little sister has one of the comfiest beds ever!  I passed out 5 minutes after my head hit the pillow!  It was much easier to sleep when I knew there were 4 other people in the house with me.  Shocking, right?

Anyways, my family is home now.  But I'm getting ready to head back to College Station...  Yay!  It's exams week, so, I NEED TO BE STUDYING RIGHT NOW.

I'll get back on later to give you a quote and the rest of my story(:

-Shelby.

Subtle Sexuality.

Tonight, I was about to lay down, close my eyes, and dream the night away, when suddenly I remembered- I HADN'T BLOGGED TODAY.  So, I ran into the kitchen to grab my laptop to do a little late-night blogging.

You're welcome...

Anyways, today was rather odd.  I've been trying to enroll in some summer school classes a la HCCS.  So far, it's been one of the most painful and troublesome tasks I've had to deal with.  These people seriously are professionals at making other peoples' lives Hell.  It is so irritating.  I can't even think of a word to describe how I feel...  Maybe something along the lines of: "ERG!"  Yeah, that'll do for now.

Also, today is Cinco de Mayo/Cinco de Drink-o/Drink-o de Mayo/Everyone-Get-Shitfaced-To-Honor-The-Mexicans--No-Wait--Fuck-The-Mexicans--I-Just-Wanna-Drink Day.  Oh, America, you slay me with your fantasmic group of residents.

Tony and I went back home today, since it's Dead Week and all.  So far, it's been average.  Although, I did go out to dinner with my parents.  We went to BJ's Brewhouse and Pub, and I got the chicken pot stickers, which are seriously one of my favorite foods.  I've tried to recreate them on several occasions- none of which have been successful.  They're just so perfect at BJ's, and as I've mentioned before, I'm just too average to make something so amazing!

Finals are next week, and I'm starting to stress.  Luckily, my stupid INFO class isn't a cumulative exam, which is totally going to help me out.  (Thanks, God!).  But on the other hand, my MATH final is gonna kick my ass.  If you haven't noticed, I really enjoy using all the fun options given to you while writing your blog (bold, italic, underline, etc.).  I haven't used all of the gadgets yet, but I absolutely intend to.

UPDATE ON MY THIGHS:  If you don't want to be grossed out, skip to the next paragraph...  You've been warned...  So, my slices were doing pretty good, up until this morning's shower.  I was drying off, and BAM!  I opened up my stupid scabs.  The bleeding has yet to stop.  Again, the daily life of Shelby...

Not too long ago, the fabulous Katie Gibson sent me a link to a video.  We are freakishly obsessed love The Office, and this video is made my some of the characters in the show.  It is seriously hilarious.  I'm putting the link on here, since the video's not on YouTube yet...  Watch "The Girl Next Door" music video.  Fabulous.
http://www.subtlesexuality.com/main.shtml 

I know what you're thinking...  What else is going on in this super interesting girl's life?  Well, I'll tell you...

NOTHING.

That's pretty much all that's happening in my life.  But, you'll be glad to know that I'm steadily becoming more and more obsessed with blogging, so, I could possibly be upping my game to two posts per day.  WATCH OUT.  It could happen.  Also, I've decided to end all my blog posts with a quote that kind of reflects how I'm feeling at the time of postage, haha.  So, here's the first one:

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending."  -Maria Robinson.

Have fabulous dreams.
Shelby Elizabeth.

Osama bin Laden

So, I know that I said that I was going to update this every day, but, I'm a busy gal.  Sorry- I'm going to do my best!

Anyways, this past weekend, the United States took custody of Osama bin Laden's body, after a military operation resulted in his death.  He was shot in the head, and it's been a pretty big deal throughout the week.  So far, a lot of stuff has been interesting.  Tony and I have been watching the news basically nonstop.  Obama just said that they're not planning to release the photos of bin Laden's dead body.  Anyways, I'm sure that 5-1-11 is going down in the books.  I figured it would be appropriate for me to mention it in my blog, since this is pretty much supposed to document my life and stuff, and this is a major event that has occurred in my life...

ANYWAYS, on to more fun/exciting stuff...

-All day every day, Tony asks me how to spell words.  ALL THE TIME.  So, for Christmas, we got the board game Scrabble as a gift, and now we play all the time.  However... HE ALWAYS BEATS ME.  It is unbelievably frustrating.  Why does this happen?!  I'm a great speller, and he still beats me every time we play the game.  I have never once beat him.  It is extremely troublesome to me.
-The other day, I really hurt myself.  Tony and I were (again) playing Scrabble, and I went to sit down on a nightstand that he had sitting in his apartment that was conveniently placed and perfectly sized.  Then, it completely broke underneath me, and sliced up the inside of my thighs pretty badly.  My mom thinks I need stitches.  And honestly, at first I was really scared, but it was SO FREAKING FUNNY.  I would post pictures, but I feel like the first picture I post on my new blog should be something special- not the inside of my less-than-attractive thighs.
-I have recently become obsessed with wedges.  Like, the shoes.  Katie Gibson started it with her ADORABLE pair in honor of That 70's Show!  And her pair are perfect, so now I'm on my own personal vendetta to find my perfect pair of wedges.  SO fun, and SO hard.  There's millions of pairs of beautiful shoes, and the ones I love cost too much.  I have a pretty expensive taste when it comes to shoes.  Ahh, my downfall.


Well, I'm tired now...
Hopefully you took the time to read all of my story today.  I have a pretty standard life.  Sometimes it gets pretty spicy though, so keep reading!  (And I'll do my best to keep blogging daily!)

See ya!
Shelby Elizabeth.

Creating a Blog.

Seriously, this is some tiring work.  Luckily, I had Katie Gibson to help me out and teach me the ways, haha.

So, since this is my first blog post, you may be thinking, "Who the hell is this girl?  What is she like?  Why should I read her blog?"

In response to your first question:  My name is Shelby.

In response to number two:  I'm about 5'5".  Average in most respects.  Eye color?  Changes daily.  Hair color? Changes biannually.  Nail polish?  Changes every twenty minutes.  Opinions?  Pretty strong.  Thoughts?  Too many (as you will soon learn).

In response to your last question:  I can't really give you a valid answer to that.  Maybe you'll read this because you have absolutely nothing better to do.  Or maybe it's because you really don't like me and you need dirt to tell your friends.  Maybe this will become a favorite of yours simply because you find joy in the averageness of my life.  No matter what your reason(s), I'm glad you're reading!

Here are some basic things about me:

-For the past four years, I have been dating the most amazing guy ever... Tony Garza.  We've been together since our freshman year of high school, and now we practically live together, haha.

-I attend Texas A&M University.

-During my freshman year of college (2010-2011), I met Katie Gibson, who has become pretty much my best friend.  We're basically twins separated at birth.  Ask anyone who has ever met the both of us.  The cause?  Extra-terrestrial forces... If I had a super cool video, I would put the link here... But I don't.

-I'm kind of a grammar nut.  Although, on this little blogging adventure, I'll probably make a few mistakes and such.  But it's because I choose to type my thoughts the way that I would say them out loud...

-I HATE THE COMMERCIALS ON YOUTUBE VIDEOS.

-My favorite Spanish phrase: "Tomala papa!"

-I have some serious pet peeves...  My biggest one: when people smack/chew with their mouths open.  GROSS.  Just stop it, people.  It's not hard.

-I think that when I turn 19, it's highly likely that terrible things are going to happen.  I'm a tad bit superstitious... And my theory is that something awful will happen, which is probably a bad thing to think, but I'm reasonably certain that it will come down to that.

-I hate the apartment complex that I'm currently in.  I can't wait for next year.  Sophomore year should be mostly pleasant (except for the potential bad thing).

Anyways, have a good evening/early morning!  I'll do my best to post something every day/night.

~Shelby Elizabeth.