Black Cloud- Let Go & Let God.

So, I've been a little off my blogging game.  Actually, I've been really off my blogging game.  I've been under a lot of stress for the past few days, and I've let it completely control my life.  So as a fair warning to you- this is a completely serious blog.  If you're not in the mood for seriousness and blah, blah, blah, then stop reading lol.

Over the past year, I have made more than my fair share of mistakes.  Unfortunately, I don't know whether or not I'm going to get the chance to correct them.  I made one mistake, and then a short time later, I made the same mistake.  But, third time's the charm, right?  I sure hope so.  And if it weren't for the incredible Tony Garza, I would've completely fallen apart this week.

Mostly, I'm worried about what my parents will say/think.  One of my biggest fears is disappointing them, which is why I've been so panicked and stressed.

I honestly think I have the HUGEST black cloud to ever exist looming over me at all hours of the day.  And every time I think the sun is going to shine, instead, it starts raining on my freaking head.  I just feel like the ultimate screw-up all the time.  And I know that I shouldn't think that way, but I just get so frustrated with myself for all the dumb, wrong things that I do.  I feel like I let down everyone around me, which is awful, because I want nothing more than to make the people I care about feel happy.

Ugh.  Despite all of my problems, I know that God is the one control, not me, not my lame issues, not school, not anything or anyone but God.

LET GO AND LET GOD.

That's my quote for today.  It's extremely important to me, especially during this rough patch.  And I hope not, but maybe someone reading this is having trouble, too- if that's the case, I hope that this helps you like it's helping me.

Best wishes,
Shelby Elizabeth.